An adventure in faith
February 13, 2012

More and more I’m realizing that this walk with Christ is an adventure in faith.

These adventures will often times stretch us, perplex us and make us uncomfortable. More and more I’m realizing that with this adventure, the key is to hang on during the journey and until the end, trusting that Christ, the pilot of our lives, will steer us through the dark and murky paths. Of course, it’s so much easier to say. I’d be a hypocrite to say that at times I have not felt like getting off course. During the journey there are times I realize that I don’t want to be there any more. I’m uncomfortable, feel like I’m experiencing parts of the adventure I did not sign up for and feel like I can’t make it.  But this is the part of the adventure that requires me to stay on course. If Christ heads my life He is more than able to take me over the next bump or hurdle.

I may not know where this adventure may take me, but I do know Who helms the journey and because of this knowledge, I’m going on hand on for the ride.


Keep Calm & Carry On
February 5, 2012

For days when you feel overwhelmed, frustrated and you want to throw in the towel. Don’t get inundated with the troubles and stresses of this world. Just keep calm and carry on. Carry on by leaning on His shoulders and trusting in Him. Just keep calm and carry on.

I am His
February 4, 2012

Off for the weekend
February 2, 2012

Don’t you just love it when you get a surprise you were not expecting? My mom went to dinner over the holidays and won a weekend at a top notch, waterfront property. She only just found out about it because she has not been checking her internet and almost missed out on the opportunity because the deadline was very close. It pays to monitor your email regularly, I guess. Yours truly is going with her and we plan to have a rocking good time. The property is amazing with great views and a ton of ambience and just what I need at this time so I’m seriously looking forward to it. I plan to sit at the deck and watch the sun come up, watch it go down, sip Pina Coladas and  and have just a ball of a time.

Excited and expectant and going to just breathe
February 1, 2012

Just Breathe

It’s good to be back and able to write again.

It’s been hard but things are improving and I feel something BIG is about to happen. I can’t put my finger on it but it’s that feeling when you know things are changing in the spirit realm and a manifestation in your life is imminent.

Since my last post I’ve seen some miracles and had some unexpected blessings. Someone who had been owing me money since 2010 finally paid up and I was able to do a lot with that $2000. And getting that person to pay was a miracle so I know it had to be the hand of God. Business looks poised to rebound as well. Overall, I’m feeling at peace. I’m still behind on my mortgage and have not been able to make the final 2 payments on my car but my power home is on. Yeah, things may seem to look bad in that sense but I’m excited and expectant. I’m excited and expectant because I’m finally starting to let go and let God take over.

Let me explain. I’ve been fighting tooth and nail to fix all the broken areas in my life. My health, my marriage, my finances and my business. Trying to make the changes on my own and hoping God would see all I was doing, how hard I was trying and then jump in and take over the reins and chart things from there. And I was becoming frustrated because it seemed like He was not doing anything. And this just got me more down and depressed and stressed because I’m here, doing my best to get things in my life the way I perceived they should be and God wasn’t working with me. And this just made me angry at Him sometimes. It honestly did. Why wasn’t He not helping me and coming through for me? Couldn’t He see the mess my life had become? Did it not bother Him to see my cry myself to sleep at nights or struggle to deal with the panic attacks that were becoming a constant part of my existence?

Sitting on my couch a week ago I felt Him saying to me that I needed to rest in Him. My Father in heaven just wanted me to rest in Him. He wanted me to lay all my concerns, worries and troubles at His feet, lay them on His heart and just leave them there. He needed me to stop trying to fix everything and change everything and just let Him take control, totally surrendering it all to Him. The moment I realized this I committed myself to just let go.  I could feel His peace washing over me and I’m feeling so much more liberated, content and free.

Now here comes the challenge – letting Him keep the control that I’ve surrendered to Him when I chose to rest in Him. So many times we say we surrender our life and even situations to Him, yet we go back and try to take back that thing we’ve surrendered. But I need to keep this peace, this contentment, this way I feel that I have not felt for a while. This tangible hope. This feeling that although I cannot see it, behind the scenes He is taking care of my life and fixing things for me. So I know I have to leave it all with Him. I couldn’t fix things on my own or change anything, no matter how hard I tried. Now I feel excited and expectant and that’s something truly worth keeping. I’m going to let go and just breathe.

On a hiatus
January 25, 2012

Seems ironic that I only started blogging here 6 days ago and now I’m on a hiatus until when I can’t say. The electric company has turned off my power home and are about to turn off my power at the office today so I don’t know when I will be back online because I will need to pay them in full if I’m to get back power. I don’t have the $800 to settle it so I’m in the darkness until then. It’s always a terrible time to have your power turned off but even more so now with all the proposals  I have outside from potential clients. Truly sucks. Since power will go off today at the office, I won’t be able to access my internet so it’s hard to know if I’m getting positive feedback from prospects regarding my proposal. The more I pray the more things seem to get worst and for a time I was even tempted to stop praying but I just couldn’t. If someone actually reads this, do prayer for me. I need all the prayer I can get now. I’m shaken but not stirred. All I have is His word to comfort me. No friends and family. A lonely time indeed and a personal all time low. Friends, clients and family owe me more money that I owe my debtors, yet everyone has something more important to do with their money than pay me what I’m owed. They won’t even reply to my messages. It feels like I’ve been stabbed in my chest and tears seem to be my portion of late. But my hope is in Him and I know my Redeemer lives.

1 Thessalonians 5:18 – Be thankful in all circumstances, for this is God’s will for you who belong to Christ Jesus.

When the scripture above came to me this morning all I could do was chuckle. I’ve never been one to act all super spiritual so I’ll admit that it is really hard to see this as being God’s will. My business is gone. My utilities are being turned off and the bank wants to take my home. I have a $700 overdraft in the bank and I’m behind of my car loan. Oh and my insurance expired yesterday. I have no friends and family to lean on and no one to talk to. How could this ever possibly be the will of my Heavenly Father? But He is God and sees and know what I don’t so I just have to take Him at His word.

With love and intense humility,


Oh – If you stumble across this, do leave a comment or word of encouragement. When I’m back and able to see this it will really life my spirits.

I heart these songs
January 23, 2012

I’m really feeling these songs today. they just speak to me. They just sum up the way that I feel about my Heavenly Father! Hope they are a blessing to you, too.

I am His daughter – Nicole Sheahan


Anchor – Mindy Gledhill





The currency of favor
January 21, 2012

I’ve been reflecting on how God has been keeping me in these tough times. My pantry has run really low, yet each day I’m not only nourished by His promises, but also the provisions He has caused others to bless me with. The more I think of it all the more I realize that God’s favor is a currency on it’s own.

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Sunday I looked at the cupboards after I came from church and could not for the life of me to put together a meal of any semblance. There simply was nothing there to take me beyond Monday. It’s amazing how He shapes and tempers us when we are receptive to what He is teaching and showing us and building in us in our times of testing. At any other time, I would have been stressed and overwhelmed at my lack at what I considered to be the most basic, but I’m really starting to take Him at His word and trust Him when He says that He is my provider and keeper. And I’ve been growing. All week I’ve eaten and I didn’t go grocery shopping, either. My mom gave me some vegetables someone had given her, a friend brought me two bountiful baskets this week, and farmer I know says He will bring me some provisions and vegetables today. Apart from my mother, I have not told any of those persons that have been a blessing to me about my current financial situation. They were just vessels used by God to help me meet my needs. I didn’t have the money to go into the grocer and buy any of the food I ate this week, but He caused others to be favorable towards me and I ate each day this week and was nourished physically. So you see, favor does have a currency.

Sometimes we tend to see the paper bill as our ticket to getting or earthly needs met, but I’ve been learning that time after time, He will cause others to bless you in the area of your need in the times you don’t have the resources to meet that need on your own.

Matthew 6 vs. 25- 26

25 “That is why I tell you not to worry about everyday life—whether you have enough food and drink, or enough clothes to wear. Isn’t life more than food, and your body more than clothing? 26 Look at the birds. They don’t plant or harvest or store food in barns, for your heavenly Father feeds them. And aren’t you far more valuable to him than they are? 27 Can all your worries add a single moment to your life? (New Living Translation)

Dear Lord
January 20, 2012

Dear Lord,

I thank you for how yesterday turned out. Much was achieved and your presence was oh so evident. Playing songs that sing your praise in the background always makes the day so much more productive. You’re the reason for my joy. A joy so rich and thick. One the world could not offer me and certainly cannot take away. I thank you for your wisdom, which always enhances my work day. If I didn’t say it before… ‘Thank you, Lord’.

PS…. and I think You’re awesome, too. And I’m totally amazed that You love me!

Your daughter,


Clearing the clutter
January 19, 2012

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Over the past couple of months I’ve been on a declutter drive. Not intentionally, but because my financial situation necessitated it. Selling off some of my stuff has not been easy but I believe in all of this God is teaching me to trust in Him and show me what I really need. He’s also teaching me that I have all that I really need. I was the classic collector and if I’m truly honest with myself I could have been a better steward with His money. I’ve never been greedy and I have shared what I had with others and blessed my local ministry but there were some excesses I could have done without.

When my financial situation necessitated that I sell off things to keep my head above the water I was surprised at the amount of things that I actually had for sale. The sad thing about it, is that I’ve never missed any of the items sold. Not once. Having to get to the point of financial ruin to realize that I could have done much better is a rude awakening, to say the least, yet I know that in spite of it all, my Father loves me and isn’t interested in suffering me to make a point. I know I won’t always be in a position of not being able to pay my bills or being stressed about being behind my mortgage or wondering where all my clients have gone. I’m not sure how He’s going to turn things around for me but I know that there is nothing that He can’t do. Don’t believe me? Check His Word.

For I know the plans I have for you,” says the LORD. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope. – Jeremiah 29:11

I purpose to be a better steward when my situation turns. I’ve grown a lot and I have learned a lot and I’m grateful that in spite of all I’m going through, He’s still showing His tender love and mercy to me.