Archive for February, 2012

An adventure in faith
February 13, 2012

More and more I’m realizing that this walk with Christ is an adventure in faith.

These adventures will often times stretch us, perplex us and make us uncomfortable. More and more I’m realizing that with this adventure, the key is to hang on during the journey and until the end, trusting that Christ, the pilot of our lives, will steer us through the dark and murky paths. Of course, it’s so much easier to say. I’d be a hypocrite to say that at times I have not felt like getting off course. During the journey there are times I realize that I don’t want to be there any more. I’m uncomfortable, feel like I’m experiencing parts of the adventure I did not sign up for and feel like I can’t make it.  But this is the part of the adventure that requires me to stay on course. If Christ heads my life He is more than able to take me over the next bump or hurdle.

I may not know where this adventure may take me, but I do know Who helms the journey and because of this knowledge, I’m going on hand on for the ride.

Keep Calm & Carry On
February 5, 2012

For days when you feel overwhelmed, frustrated and you want to throw in the towel. Don’t get inundated with the troubles and stresses of this world. Just keep calm and carry on. Carry on by leaning on His shoulders and trusting in Him. Just keep calm and carry on.

I am His
February 4, 2012

Off for the weekend
February 2, 2012

Don’t you just love it when you get a surprise you were not expecting? My mom went to dinner over the holidays and won a weekend at a top notch, waterfront property. She only just found out about it because she has not been checking her internet and almost missed out on the opportunity because the deadline was very close. It pays to monitor your email regularly, I guess. Yours truly is going with her and we plan to have a rocking good time. The property is amazing with great views and a ton of ambience and just what I need at this time so I’m seriously looking forward to it. I plan to sit at the deck and watch the sun come up, watch it go down, sip Pina Coladas and  and have just a ball of a time.

Excited and expectant and going to just breathe
February 1, 2012

Just Breathe

It’s good to be back and able to write again.

It’s been hard but things are improving and I feel something BIG is about to happen. I can’t put my finger on it but it’s that feeling when you know things are changing in the spirit realm and a manifestation in your life is imminent.

Since my last post I’ve seen some miracles and had some unexpected blessings. Someone who had been owing me money since 2010 finally paid up and I was able to do a lot with that $2000. And getting that person to pay was a miracle so I know it had to be the hand of God. Business looks poised to rebound as well. Overall, I’m feeling at peace. I’m still behind on my mortgage and have not been able to make the final 2 payments on my car but my power home is on. Yeah, things may seem to look bad in that sense but I’m excited and expectant. I’m excited and expectant because I’m finally starting to let go and let God take over.

Let me explain. I’ve been fighting tooth and nail to fix all the broken areas in my life. My health, my marriage, my finances and my business. Trying to make the changes on my own and hoping God would see all I was doing, how hard I was trying and then jump in and take over the reins and chart things from there. And I was becoming frustrated because it seemed like He was not doing anything. And this just got me more down and depressed and stressed because I’m here, doing my best to get things in my life the way I perceived they should be and God wasn’t working with me. And this just made me angry at Him sometimes. It honestly did. Why wasn’t He not helping me and coming through for me? Couldn’t He see the mess my life had become? Did it not bother Him to see my cry myself to sleep at nights or struggle to deal with the panic attacks that were becoming a constant part of my existence?

Sitting on my couch a week ago I felt Him saying to me that I needed to rest in Him. My Father in heaven just wanted me to rest in Him. He wanted me to lay all my concerns, worries and troubles at His feet, lay them on His heart and just leave them there. He needed me to stop trying to fix everything and change everything and just let Him take control, totally surrendering it all to Him. The moment I realized this I committed myself to just let go.  I could feel His peace washing over me and I’m feeling so much more liberated, content and free.

Now here comes the challenge – letting Him keep the control that I’ve surrendered to Him when I chose to rest in Him. So many times we say we surrender our life and even situations to Him, yet we go back and try to take back that thing we’ve surrendered. But I need to keep this peace, this contentment, this way I feel that I have not felt for a while. This tangible hope. This feeling that although I cannot see it, behind the scenes He is taking care of my life and fixing things for me. So I know I have to leave it all with Him. I couldn’t fix things on my own or change anything, no matter how hard I tried. Now I feel excited and expectant and that’s something truly worth keeping. I’m going to let go and just breathe.